MY BIG OLE GUT

I watch this show called NCIS and on it the main character is a hard nosed investigator called Gibbs who always follows his "gut". See i understand this way of life because i have always lived by the 'gut". Some people would say that the gut is simply ur conscience, but i disagree. How can UR conscience know that someone has ill intentions towards u? It can't, it simply can't. So I trust the GUT. The gut has got me out of some fucked up situations and away from fucked up people, its honestly been a great tool. But now I'm worried, you see the last BIG decision i let the gut make was regarding my very small circle of friends. I found myself in a situation where the gut told me to get rid of them. That i didn't need them in my life for 1 reason or another. So 4 years ago i let them all go. And when i did, i felt good like something was lifted off of me. I thought i was embarking on a new phase in my life. But after a few months I felt empty. I knew i couldn't go back, but I didn't see a way forward. So now here I am 24 years old, never had a boyfriend, my mom and my sisters are the only people I can call my friends, wondering if i hadn't listen to my gut....would I be in a better place/mindset? I'm hoping that whatever it was that drove my core to move me in this direction was right. I hope that I don't spend the rest of my life wondering.

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I'm sad and lonely so I'm starting a blog. I have little to say tonite.... i have just realized that i have become a victim of my own mind. See i have been believing I'm not good enough or smart enough for people to want to be around, but that SO not true. I'm hella funny, sweet as pie, bossy as a mother(but I'm not a bitch) and a all around nice girl. So tonite I'm breaking out of this cocoon I've built, and starting fresh. So bloggers join me on my quest to become a better version of me.